my mother bought me a baju kebaya. pink colour.
im not wearing it because its hideous. no, not the
colour, its the design.
nvm tt.
what im worried abt is tt she is bising-ing saying tt i
dont appreciate the things she do for me.
walauwey. what she want sia?

oh wait i know.
she wants me to wear tt hideous baju kebaya
just so tt id look stupid.
thx ma.

now im stuck. dont know whether i shud wear it
to make my mak happy,
or just dump it in the bin where it rightly belongs.

fuck.fuck.fuck


you know how sometimes you sing along to a song not
really knowing the lyrics?haha. id sing the parts tt i know
and keep quiet for those i dont.
but this only applies if im singing while
walking in public lah.

i had been singing along to
'how to be dead' ( specifically, the first two lines).
heard it first at riks blog. super nice ley. went to check
the proper lyrics,
not wanting to sing the lyrics tt i made up while singing in
the shower just to feel like a rockstar anymore,
and oh dear.
its like the song is somewhat mocking me.
if only i had heard of the song before this. i could have
asked my exboyfriend to dedicate it to me.
(:

my friend, Connie, was asking me to sit comfortably
just now. she then turned away. i thought she wanted to
like maybe make her eyes senget or
something like tt. but instead she turned around smiling.
then she showed me her tongue.it was covered in blood.
ugh.
mind you, her hands were on her lap all the while.

i asked her to swallow the blood
and to do it again.
walauwey! she sucked her gum so tt the blood will
come out. you know.. gum..the thing tt
keeps our teeth in place.. you know right?
haha.
its super disgusting lor.
but i still asked her to do it many many more times
after tt to just gross myself out. -_-.

eh!
i just realised tt i blogged twice today.
tadi morning, and again now.
good.

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no

Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God



yes.
i changed the skin back to the one tt was before.
decide tt the 'suga suga you make me fly' skin
somewhat, somehow i dont like
it tt much afterall.
soooo. yeah.

im up super early today.like.. i cannot sleep anymore.
im not feeling so good lah.not as in sick,
as in a bit down.wont bore you
to tears with the details.

im watching clips of singapore idols2 on youtube.
those episodes tt i missed.yes. im a fan again.
too bad nurul was voted out. id rather
it be joakim.but at least paul
and joakim were in the
bottom three.

finally,singapore dah tak pekak lagi.
im a happy goober, i think.
whatever tt is -_-

grr.
i dont know what to write anymore.
zzzzz.

20 mins before i get ready for work.
ugh.

the yeah yeah yeahs are not tt nice
leh. their songs sounds pretty much
like one another.

or maybe im just being irritating.
haha.

am at the sporeidol website now. the idols
who got voted out keep saying they
love their fans bla3. aiyah.
i also will love my fans if they voted for me waaad.






just got back.
i jumpa siti lar.
i tell u, siti is even more gondol than rischka.
haha. i can nvr be serious when im arnd her.
we laugh at everything and abt everything.
power lah she.
(:
while waiting for the bus,we saw a friend of siti's.
walau. the bf super hot leh!!
heheh.

aiyah.
i feel freaking bloated lah.
makan banyak sgt.
somemore ah, ive got a backache.
since morning. arrr.
but the bf think i bedek him when i told him so.
wth.

aiyah.
i better go to sleep.
tata babies.


why must shaman king start so late?
damn it.
im tired and i want to sleep.
but i donwant to miss shaman king lar.
damn it..
-_-. <--- haha. mcm ada mole.

im on a diet.
i decided tt jogging isnt for me afterall.
so id just get rid on my boncit perut
by not eating.
erm. by not eating as much as i usually do, i mean.
heh.

let me tell you how much and what i eat ok?
in the morning,
i will go to the dapur to see what my
mother is cooking lar. see only..not eat. haha.
after tt, go to work.
as soon as my partner in butt ogling aka chinese sister sampai at the work place,
i will ask
"eh sam!! want eat what today? eat chicken rice or kway teow goreng basah?!!"
yes. complete with exclamation marks. (:
for those who dont know what is kway teow goreng basah is,
well, the direct translation for it is wet fried kway teow.
hahaha.
i tell you..
hmm.hmm. makcik cook very sedap leh!!

at 12.30pm, i will proceed to buy whatever it is i decide to eat.
i may eat different things on different days,
but my heart will go on and will always belong to kway teow goreng basah!!
to kway teow goreng basah : gua cinta sama lu beb. \m/

after lunch,
i will go around ntuc looking for snacks.
and then, sam and i will snack and snack lar.
and then, complain to each other about how fat we are.
hahah.

but tt was yesterday and all the yesterdays before yesterday's yesterday.
now ( as in today ) no more like tt.
sam is on a serious diet. -_-
and i think,
i shall be on a serious one too.
its no fun when you eat alone, you know.
boohoo. :(

shit.

ive got constipation.
i think.
but cannot be waaadd.
its been like a 2weeks since i drank coke.
i use to drink coke everyday.
but now no more.
no is 'kay long yen'.
air longan daaa.

ok.
shaman king want to start already.

and maybe,
if i think and believe in it enough,
i will be thinner.

as long as tak anorexic or bulimic ok lar eh.
(:

byebye.


my bf just told me to be strong.
about what also i dont know.
wahaha.
all i did was to msg him " T_T. bye."
Wan can be erm..abit like Jacintha the spore idol judge sometimes.
neither here nor there it seems.
haha.

mcm dah lama tak makan mcdlnd nya hotcakes eh.
mcm rindu pulak.(:

i dont know.
but ive been quite happy lately.
even tho my mother is not talking to me tt much anymore.
i think its because i met the bf yesterday.

i want to watch JohnTuckerMustDie.
i saw e trailer while waiting for MySuperExGf to start.
MySuperExGf was not very good lah.

Ali is a funny funny boy.
while the bf is funny in a kooky sort of way,
ali is crazy funny.
and tts a good thing
because ure guranteed a good time whenever he's arnd. (:


hello.
i went jogging this morning.
really lah..i jogged for 15min and walked for 45 min.
hahaha.

but the park is really pretty in the morning.
no kidding.


so yeah.
the way tt i was dressed just now,
i wont be surprised if anyone thought i was a prostitute.
what the hell was i thinking?!
nvm.

saw the fireworks.
super nice lah.

hello darkmetalman.
i saw u, u batu lesong u.
still can ask " yani eh?"

hello huining.
nice to see you agn.
too bad i couldnt sing for you the cow song once more.
it would have been hilarious. we could have changed the lyrics to
include lions having sex.
haha.

hello samir.
u handsome dude you.
intan is gonna scream if i am to tell her i saw u.
she will be like " issit?! where did you see him? with his gf ar?"
and all the while there will be this gila look on her face
bacause ure gila and shes gila.
im not making sense leh!
haiya.

everybody.
suhaimi is sulaiman ok.
and suhaimi aka sulaiman's sister kissd my hand when she salam me.
whoa. for a few second after tt i was speechless.
im used to e salam-but-no-kiss-my-hand only.
hehe.

why the hell have i peppered my sentences
with vulgar words while talking?
i think im sick.

talking about sick,
jeremy made me drink the most vile drink ever.
so bitter tt it made me cry. well.. almost cry.
he bought me this $8 drink from a sinseh shop cos i was sick.
afetr tt, i was ok straightaway. haha. -_-

my eyes hurt.
someone poke them for me.

bf.
can you pls go cut ur hair?!
i look at u and i rimas, you know.
anyway. ikea was fun just now wasnt it?
too bad we didnt find what my mother wanted us to find.heh.
<3


i get jealous so easily that im getting a bit sick of myself.
i would question who is this girl and who's the
other girl. in the end,
id get angry and bore myself to sleep.

i get angry super fast.
and im almost always angry with my mother nowadays.
its too long to explain.
i dont understand her and i dont think i even want to.
mothers are a headache. i do love her lah..shes nice and all tt
but she sure can get on my nerves and i sure wanna break hers.

now.
unless ur mother doesnt nag AT ALL,
dont start to think " eh tak baik sak dekni. mak sendiri"
pegi mampos lah ngn kau yg berfikir begitu.
shoo-shoo.

on the other hand,
im quite a happy person.
ya lar.. id get angry but then id forget abt it just as fast.
i laugh at stupid things and sometimes
id laugh to myself .
tt mostly terjadi when im in the bus alone.
id start to think of the many funny things tt ever happened and start laughing.

so then.
if you ever see a girl laughing to herself dlm the bus kan,
give her a smack.
because tts me.

but if you ever see a girl laughing to herself in the mrt,
smack her breasts.
because tts rischka.
hahaha.
no offence lah riks.
we kawan mah. (:


stupid pseudo jap/ arab girls.
maybe they do have arab blood but i dont care.
they so dont look like they do.

abdad otak kau lar.
bodo nak mampos.
go burn in hell, can onot?

the wedding was a ok lar.
but it was very panas.
my cousins and i encountered a baby who molests.
he grabbed farah's breasts leh!!
and then he laughed.
whoa.

i havent upload his pic.
later.
the computer is lagging.




see.
i got new skin.
and i did a little self praise while writing the profile part.
heheh.

that person at the new work place reminds me
so much of my uncle.
the one who passed away long long ago.
its not that they look tt much alike,
but he just reminds me so much of my uncle
tt i am afraid to look,
what more to smile at him.
*shrugs*

i havent been updating, no?
haha.
got abit lazy lar.
what more i didnt know what to write about.
some sort of writer's block, i guess.
cey.

somehow, people are nice nowadays.
no.they are nicer. (:

i was at expo just now.
the company had a booth in which we were to rot and maybe
while rotting we could sell phones.

but we looked at hot guys
from many countries compete in the rock climbing competition instead.
and im happy to say, singapore is not all bad.
not all bad-looking , i mean.
there is still hope yet! *pervert moment sikit*
however,
they sure are not as good as the other countries in rockclimbing though.
haha.

but still,
as per always,
i question the purpose of having roadshows
where you'd rarely sell anything.
why would you waste so much money on something that is
pretty much, well, not making money?

aiyah.
tmrw got wedding to attend.
better kacau the bf before i sleep.


god.
im stressed out lyk putty-putty.
because sometimes, too little might seem like too much.
help me pls?