some time ago somebody went " wheres the horny yani i used to know?". now, when i got tt msg, i believed tt he used such a word to describe me simply because it rhymes with my name. but i also wondered why he didnt say something like " wheres the funny/pretty (ehem)/guli/coli yani i used to know?". buuutt, i didnt think too much abt it lah. otak aku ni kecik, nanti nak pikir2 terberak pulak kn. (:

at work, pple go " horny sia you, yani". about this, i also wondered, for 10 min, why they thought so.

and just now, a cousin of mine said i was horny too. when i tried to defend myself by saying tt im only dirty-minded but not horny, she went " dirty mindedness is derived from being horny". i told her instead tt its actually the other way round, but she said tt she said it first thus her words count and mine doesnt. pandai eh budak2 skarang menjawab. ahah.

now, now. i am by no means a horny person. because if i am, id be fucking escalators. moving ones, no less okeh! you pple are so wrong lah. im as horny as a.. keyboard?

so stop telling me im horny can?? tell me lah im cute ke, best ke, skinny ke.. okeh jugak.

______________________________________________________

okeh. the same cousin who told me im horny, told me to get over the boyfriend. she said some things tt made me somewhat realise tt she is 1) indeed clever, 2) can be a future fortune teller/ mind reader and 3) a pseudo psychiatrist.

or maybe tt im just freakin transparent lar. but, id like to give her the credit of being a very able future fortune teller/ mind reader. in short, she made me think and i think shes the best person to set a person straight if there is ever the need to. ure the best lah, kak tasha. thnks ar. takmo malu2 kalau nak blanja saya pizza okeh. ahah.

i better go. tadi dah terbangun lambat for pergi-ing kerja. if esok lambat lagi, mampos aku. bye bye butterfly. (:

oh. farah likes this song alot. this song on my blog. wahah. you like it too, dont you? *makes perverted face* daaa.


my friend asked me why am i not looking for a boyfriend or want to get to know guys. its a qn nobody asked before and i wasnt really prepared to answer although i did, eventually. i told him tt i still am missing and not over the ex-boyfriend yet.

the key word is of course ' yet'. i will soon but at the rate im going, i think it'll still be long time to come. its already been two months and somehow, in these two months, i find myself less and less attrcted to the opposite sex ( with the exception of elvin ng, of course!). tt not to say tt im going all lesbian on you guys.. no no. just tt i dont see any point to be so.

im the kind of person who express my feelings kind of openly. from my gestures and from my facial expression i am readable. very see through. my feelings range from one extreme to another. when i like something, and only if i do get a hold of it, i will hold on to tt thing and keep liking it for like.. forever. i am not kidding.

although i havent been this way with other ex-bfs, maybe i didnt like him enough or wasnt with him long enough etc, i was particularly head over heels with the most recent one. we werent the perfect couple. damn me if i am ever to say tt we were ever happy.

and tt is of course, the ultimate problem. we were never happy with the way each other was. everything was rosy when we were friends. but when we eventually got together, our personality were just too different. and unfortunately, we couldnt get around the probelm.

its a cliched thing. but this is something i heard a few years back. a guy in NS looks for a gf, a companion of sorts to get him through. but once they're out, they dump you because they now have the freedom and can always find somebody else easily. this may not be the case, but tt was how i felt. i felt jilted by somebody who had hung on for almost two years just to dump me at the end of it.

to top it all of, he called me childish, a moron and pushed all the blame onto me. i told him before tt it wasnt all my fault but still he went on to conclude tt it definately is.

when we were togther, a month prior to our breakup, he told me tt even if he doesnt call or meet me for a month, it is up to him. i shouldnt try to control when we should meet whatsoever. when i kiss him, he just goes "imagine ure kissing a dead person" because he doesnt respond.

although i never did envision nor wanted us to get back together, i still like him. i like him, i like him, i like him. SHIT.





aku ada rasa taku takut sikit ar. ada lipas besar dlm bilik then aku takut nak tidur. sekali tt lipas climb on top aku mcm mana? abes kn, mak aku suruh aku tangkap sendiri. bila aku suruh tangkap kn, dia tgk aku mcm aku dah gila. sebab dia pun takut lipas jugak. adik2 aku pulak takda pat rumah. pantat punya lipas, bila tak ada lelaki dlm rumah kau kluar. kalau anak kau yg kluar takpa jgak. boleh aku action hero sebab kecik sot-tet-let jer. tapi kalau mak lipas yg kluar aku tgk badan mak lipas tu leper2 shiny2 aku geli laaarrr. susah lah ada tong smpah dlm rumah! apasal lah mak aku g pindah bedok where all the tong sampahs are dlm rumah? kn dah ada lipas leper (tapi kirakn quite gemok jugak ah for lipas) dalam bilik. harap2 lipas tu tak pergi kat hamster aku yg bernama hamster lah. kalau tak matii hamster aku nnti. aku masih belum find out the gender of hamster aku lagik ni. so the very cobaan, lah.

KNN. MCM MANA NI AKU NAK TIDUR??


when i gargle listerine early in the morning, i dont tilt my head back. because firstly, listerine tastes vile, and secondly, i somehow envision myself swallowing it without meaning to and suffer subsequently as a result of a burned small intestine.

nowadays, i gargle while looking straight ahead. but of course this is hard as the liquid tend to spill onto the floor instead of cleaning my mouth. i will look at it, there on the floor, and ask, "why wont you clean my mouth?!" and it'll reply " because id rather clean the floor, you gunduu. its much cleaner than your mouth any old time, anyway. "

ok. so tt conversation between the listerine and me is a lie. it was constructed just for your amusement.

what really happen was this : i will look at it, there on the floor, and thank god tt the liquid didnt spill from my mouth and onto my unprotected breasts, stomach, feet and everything else tt is not protected including my vagina (although it will be kind of impossible for it to spill from my mouth and onto my vagina, you know what i mean?). im scared tt somehow, the listerine would be like acid and burn your skin. sheesh.

of course, i still do get to clean my mouth by closing it (the mouth)and 'swishing' (i have no other term for it, lah) the blue-coloured liquid that strangely looks like some kind of dish washing liquid from one cheek to another. if you dont get what i mean, then lets go for a drink. -_-

but.. tts not gargling is it? because to gargle is, according to the dictionary, to wash or rinse the throat or mouth with a liquid held in the throat and kept in motion by a stream of air from the lungs. i die die also want to gargle one, so i will try to gargle without tilting my head back first, and then when cannot, theeeennn i do the 'swishing' thing. mind you, i do this every single day, every single time.

i have the spirit of a vampire slayer.. like buffy like tt. ahaha.


hello. nenek is in the hospital. ahh. am worried about her. i sapu-ed for her the cream and gave her the ubats to eat this morning and seriously thought tt she was getting better.

yanti is also in the hospital. i just got to know. nobody told me until i asked. oh well, she'll be out frm the hospital tmrw. hope she gets well soon.

murphy is quitting by the end of the month. i think im going to go crazy. he is one of the very few pple who gets me laughing. and i mean really laughing.. till my stomach hurts and i start to cry. shit sia. when he told me he was leaving i was like " you're going to leave me alone?!!" i feel super sad lah okeh. hes been the super gerek person who makes me forget all my worries unintentionally. haiya.

i saw a naked video of my fren today. ahaha. when my ex- bf asked me what i was doing just now while in msn, i told him so. he was like " cn see his private part?" and when i went "yup2." he was like " dont see lah!!!! "

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i read the following and doubled up with laughter. super funny lah okeh!!

Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagiSahaja? Petang Dan malam awak doakan saya takSelamat?
Murid : Selamat pagi, petang Dan malam cikgu!
Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh Orang! Kata selamat sejahtera! Senang Dan PenuhBermakna.Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi Semua Masa Dan keadaan.
Murid : Selamat sejahtera cikgu!
Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik.Hari ini cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang Perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan Perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab denganCepat, lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?
Murid : Faham, cikgu!
Cikgu : Saya tak mahu Ada apa-apa gangguan.
Murid : (senyap)
Cikgu : Pandai!
Murid : Bodoh!
Cikgu : Tinggi!
Murid : Rendah!
Cikgu : Jauh!
Murid : Dekat!
Cikgu : Keadilan!
Murid : UMNO!
Cikgu : Salah!
Murid : Betul!
Cikgu : Bodoh!
Murid : Pandai!
Cikgu : Bukan!
Murid : Ya!
Cikgu : Oh Tuhan!
Murid : Oh Hamba!
Cikgu : Dengar ini!
Murid : Jgn dengar itu!
Cikgu : Diam!
Murid : Bising!
Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!
Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!
Cikgu : Mati aku!
Murid : Hidup kami!
Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!
Murid : Akar lama tak tau!
Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!
Murid : Rajin kami belajar cikgu!
Cikgu : Kamu Gila!
Murid : Kami siuman!
Cikgu : Cukup! Cukup!
Murid : Kurang! Kurang!
Cikgu : Sudah! Sudah!
Murid : Belum! Belum!
Cikgu : Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?
Murid : Sebab saya seorang pandai!
Cikgu : Oh! Melawan!
Murid : Oh! Mengalah!
Cikgu : Kurang ajar!
Murid : Cukup ajar!
Cikgu : Habis aku!
Murid : Kekal kami!
Cikgu : O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!
Murid : K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!
Cikgu : Sudah, bodoh!
Murid : Belum, pandai!
Cikgu : Berdiri!
Murid : Duduk!
Cikgu : Saya kata UMNO salah!
Murid : Kami dengar Keadilan betul!
Cikgu : Bangang kamu ni!
Murid : Cerdik kami tu!
Cikgu : Rosak!
Murid : Baik!
Cikgu : Kamu semua ditahan tengah Hari ini!
Murid : Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!
Cikgu : (Senyap Dan mengambil buku-bukunya Keluar.)


ahah. see, the internet connection is bck. both at home and at work. (: they had to somehow go crazy together and im left with choices such as
1) go to an internet cafe.. which id rather not to. or
2) watch tv and talk on the phone instead. or
3) start hounding my brother for the money he owes me.

all of those doesnt appeal very much to me. id rather be on the net at home and chat online (so can save hp bill. eheh.).

but, i still went ahead with all of them except for tt internet cafe thingy. and.. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. but i miss the internet. after mere two days. HOHO. my brother still refuse to return me my money, its not as if i even expect him to because i know he wont from the very first time i hand him those nicely-textured-to-be-crispy-to-touch money, and gives me tt blank face of his. i started to recall why i loved watching e tv and talking on the phone so much in the first plce (until the unlimited broadband comes chugging along oh-so-grandly) and oh, i started writing in my diary again. AMAZING.

i havent written in tt diary for super long eventhough i bring it everywhere i go. no lah.. go toilet i nvr bring lah. -_-" but still, with the internet gone, i turned to the diary to complain abt things. of course, i terlanjur abit lah. smua benda terkutok all i write. maklum lah..dah lama tak bukak itu diary. haha. mampos kau, tkkn nak tulis smua crita pat sini kn.. terlalu sensasi lah, pak. yg boleh dipublickn, i write here lah eh. i wrote all the things i cant write here, there. pham2 lah.

im down with the flu. and feeling2 like want to fever. aduii. flu is better than coughing though. at least pple go "alhamdulillah" (crrect spelling onot ar?) or " god bless you" when you sneeze. but when you cough ar, pple look at you as if you're foaming at the mouth.

however, some chinese blieve tt when you sneeze, somebody is talking bad abt you. if you have a cold then what does tt mean eh?? i mean, you sneeze for almost 24/7 when you have a cold kn.

i dont like it when stupid pple stand in front of my shop and look at my posters and say " NO.. im just standing here" and makes a face when i ask them if i can help them. you stupid or what? if you're just standing there, you wont be looking at the promotion posters what! if you're just standing there, you must stand in front of my shop meh? what good does tt do? standing in front of my shop gets you gold isit? but ah, stand in front of my shop nvm lah eh.. as long as you dont stand facing my shop. if not, your eyes will wander to look at the displays and etc and i will confirm ask you if i can help you. and then you will proceed to go " No.. im just standing here". right. go lick ass okeh.

frankly, this kind pple are so stupid tt i bet they drink their own pee. nver use brain one. mother father teach also no use.

i better go. dah lapar ni. mcm nak mkn yong tau foo seh. (:
daaa.


i have this habit of deleting pple or so called 'friends' from my friend list on friendster. since i dont know and i dont bother to get to know them. so aku delete lah. abeh nak buat apa lagi kn. (:

i rarely add pple. i rarely accept their request to add either. but when i do, it must mean tt im in a good mood. sometimes, i add them just because i want to view their profile. so after i view, i delete. heh. but of course, i dont do tt to everybody lah. kau ni pon.

but it is beyond me how a person can have many accounts with thousands of friends. bnyk nah kwn kau. tak pening ke?? 500 jer aku tgk dah mcm nak pengsan. bulehh igt ke nama dorang smua??

its weird to be at home on a sunday. i mati-mati fikir today wednesday, you know! when my mother told me to wake her up from her nap at 10am so tt she can watch suria segar, i was mcm blur. aku fikir lah sorang2 agaknya mak aku ni dah nyanyuk. hari wednesday mana ada suria segar. haha. it must be the always-off-on-wednesday syndrome.

i think tt the slogan " lebih sexy katakn tidak!" is super nice. no.. not tt i like it tt they say more sexy cannot (i like sexy leh. so i say, GO FOR IT!!), but i just like the way it goes. you get what i mean onot? nvm lah.

i like the slogan tt they have on buses tt goes "there are unseen reasons why two of a kind might be togther" or something like tt too. and it shows two buses with the same numbers ariving togther with jams in the background. NOOOOOO. NOT STRAWBERRY JAMS LAH!!! eh. yg jam at highway lah.

but ah, if jam nvm lah the bus come late. skali the aunty, yes aunty, drive slow how? like the aunty who drives bus 26 everyday at 10:37am. damn slow sia. i think she also off on wednesday. cos i see her every other day lah. shes like the aunty2 yg eksen. wahah. muka mintak kena tendang lah eh.. give pple black face everyday for what? not as if we nvr pay leh.

see you.


i turned on the computer and was greeted by the sight of gays fucking each other's asses. damn popups. mentang-mentang penis kau besar.. nak kena advertise pat computer aku kah? -_-

spent the whole day playing games on the POS system. playing games on the POS system so much easier since its touchscreen. suddenly, im the queen of gaming. ahaha. games always get me excited. id put all of my heart into it. id scream, laugh and stomp my feet just playing them. i got excited even while playing the harry potter game on my playstation. but alas, the harrypotter game is spoilt now. aaahh..i miss harrypotter and his spells.

i saw daniel ong today. he was shopping for groceries with jamie teo in the ntuc. he looks alot more better in person. not as fat as he does on tv. but hey, pple always say tt tv makes you look bigger than you really are and tts why celebrities are bent on staying thin.. they just dont want to look fat on tv lah.

this song by nickelback is an all time favourite. just as is unintended by muse .
enjoy!



pretty girl. another pretty girl.
EH!! APA INI!! WHY DONT HAVE NIPPLES SIA??!!
lets take a closer look. O_O

whoah! they really have no nipples. how to breastfeed their children like this?!!
hahaha. japanese girls (in comics) have no nipples. how sad. especially when most of the guys (in comics) are pretty cute like the one in the first picture. how to breastfeed? will it be considered unnatural sex if the girls without nipples have sex? i mean, it is unnatural wad..when you dont have nipples. cats also got nipples ok! computer also got nipples -- the alphabet buttons on the keyboard. eheheh.

i think the person who drew those long and big things tt looks more like a winter melon than anything else, is a virgin who has nvr watched porn. come come.. i ask my fren have porn onot and pass to you, mr comic guy. ahh. i wonder if the guys have heads on their penis. HOHOHO.

anyway. i saw this couple inside the bus hugging each other all the time tt they were standing. kesian kawan dia.. can see only but cannot join. threes a crowd, indeed.(:

but seeing them hug makes me think of riduwan. and thinking of riduwan makes me sad. and being sad makes me want to cry. but i didnt. i tahan-ed mcm nak rak and was still feeling abit down when i reached home. you know ah, i texted the cousin yest morning saying 'oh shit. i miss wan.' and by coincidence, tt night he msged saying he was near my blk earlier in the day bla3. i think i should text more pple telling them i miss wan and maybe wan will msg me more. haha. i still like to hope tt we'll get back togther although i know its not possible. im a loser, arent i? (:

but i felt reasonably cheered up after i wantched tt Macam-Macam Aznil show. ahah. super funny lah tt guy. gtg. mak dah berbunyi.bye.

morning beb.

haaa. am going jalaning raya today. wasnt able to convince the mother tt i have diarhoea even tho ive been in and out of the toilet for many times -- not tt i did anything while i was inside the toilet. i only sat on the toilet bowl for at least 5mins and then try to make the toilet flush as loudly as possible. but mother says there are alot of toilets in spore and we can stop when i want/need to. bahsss.

shes asking me to isikn e tempat kuihs now. how to fill??!!! i fill, she eat another punya (different type) kuih. then i fill another one she eats another. walauwey. then she laugh and say " haha. now youve got a lot of work. *BIG SMILE* " eh?? she a sadist i think.

alaaaa. anybody know how i can put malay songs here? on my blog here?* can teach me? i better go. tgh pasrah ni dngar lagu sedih. heheh.

*im not going to put the my heart song lah, dun worry be happy. (: