cis, on the 18th aja i had to fork out 150buckaroos for a 'new' 2nd-hand hp. stupid 5300 slipped from my hands twice in less than one hour. the screen went blank and it would have cost $70 to repair. so the uncle clever and talked me into buying another phone instead. tu duit eh, padahal aku nk save for this month to shop. sebab i had already pakaied 100plus plus on shopping abt two weeks back while i was out with rischka. that was more than i had intended to spend but hey. duit dah terbang tak boleh complain kan? at least ada bajus and thingys to pkai and feel pretty in. :D


i went to read nafiqa's blog and i laughed my ass off when i saw what she said about her friend calling her willy wonka because of her hair: 'Nie masalahnya dengan kawan2 lama... Tak sampai hati aku nak rembat die...'


i can imagine her tone of voice and her face if she were to say this in real life and mak ai. funny shit of the year, okay. nafiqa always gets me laughing when she bebual melayu sebab really very tak kena. ntah mcm mana dia pass o lvls punya oral pun tak tahu. i miss this girl fucking much, more so than i had thought i would and i would kill to just see her in school everyday like last yr. school is not the same without the usual suspects like umai, ain, nafiqa and rashidah. its been ages since ive set eyes on dian, nurb and nadia and i miss them all. yeah, i know nurul is in the same school, same class as me and though that makes being where i am alot better than if i am to be alone, things are just really very different when we're not all together, 9persons crowding on one table, a different person bacaing the doa mkn every meal time, and gossiping like theres no tmrw. i mean, what else do girls do when they have free time kan? huhuhuhu.


talk about missing people, i miss hanis alot.. like how a fat boy misses cake. haha but no worries cos ill be meeting her on friday for her birthday dinner thingy. and ill be meeting ridhwan come saturday for a movie. now all thats left is to meet the 6 other ite clementi girls, rischka and intan.





you know how i had told you that i dont come up with ideas? the situation still stands at that but luckily for me, i have friends/family who would lend me their brains for no charge at all. cuma buat mcm cerita i like the most tragic of the century aja dah enough. tak payah nk buat suara kesian sebab my suara yg irritating and nyaring will do the trick. diaorg ni semua mmg, they just want me to shut up so they give me gooooooood ideas or else i wont stop talking. (=


anyways, after ideas that range from keyboard buttons that generate drumming music notes or somesort, a foldable keyboard and keyboard for children, i settled on a keyboard with shortcut buttons like how a hp has. ex-matrep pandai yg kasi idea tau. yelah aku mmg ckp with they all modify the keyboard sebab senang sikit kn? and they all thought of those damned ideas in mere minutes while aku yg bijaksana ni, fikir smpai berjam-jam tak dpt satu hasil pun. ni mcm yani g jadi masseuse like how my math teacher while in sec 4 had suggested. tapi sorry ah, no extra service. i only buat kerja halal. MUAHAHAHA.


anyways, anneh liked the keyboard with additional shortcut buttons idea and she finally took a look at my storyboard, edited it abit and membebel abt random things. like how i shouldnt start with a certain sentence when in the first place kn, DIA YG BILANG AKU TO USE THE DAMNED SENTENCE. tak hot pe telinga aku? mcm nk sepaaaaaaak aja dia peh nandek.


ah k elyana is calling me. i better go pick up truck her call. (=


gmbar all over the place and i know mmg ni pun cerita dah basi tapi apa aku kisah? happy bird'day to my dearest cousin asri who turns the big 20 on the 21st. senang aja want to tell him apart from my other cousins. tgk rambut dia golden monkey aja. (=

gmbar yg lain2 will be uploaded at my shutterfly..... soon. muahaha.

anyways, there was some cca fair at school last week and id love to ask u to guess what cca i joined but then it'd be redundant cos im gonna tell u it anyways. kak yani joined rockclimbing and outdoor adventure club la siak. satu cca tak cukup, nk dua. and both very good sebab fall on four separate days and i cn go to work and do my damned projects and stiiiiiiillllll attend these ccas. pandai eh ite unknowingly buat very good time management.

got three projects tapi yg aku paling tak suka is OFA. adakah dia nk aku bebual pasal a new computer-related product? part bebual very easy but the problem is tt i cannot think of modifying ANY computer-related product to make it new. kental kepe aku. im sorry ah, i have always been the kind of person who doesnt come up w new ideas. i carry out ideas, nvr the one who comes up with them. yes, im as unoriginal as a person cn get. im fine with tt on most days except when i have to do stupid projects like this yg takda kena mengena dgn..... apa-apa at all. why cant it be a new product on something else? aku dah la bodoh part computer2 ni semua (tanya ex-bf aku. dia marah tau aku taknak learn abt computer thingys.) abeh kena project mcm gini, i otak mati tau. i wasted a whole week doing nothing while other pple got on with their powerpoints and everthings.

k sekarang kakak nk pergi research on computer-related products lepas tu kakak nk go plan how to convince the teacher that i ada modify ni product walaupun tak modify at all. jgn main2 ah. aku pandai tipu k. dah bnyk sgt tgk cerita drama indon.

i have always been the one you come looking for when the girls you date, ditch you. i have always been the one you waste your time on when other girls are busy and wouldnt waste their time on you. i have always been that girl who was always there for you. but im tired of being there for you. im tired of being ur back-up plan. im so very tired of always being happy for you, making you happy when i know that anytime now, ure gonna split like you always do when another girl comes along and commands for your attention.


and trust me, dear boy. it wont be long before you split and disappear, no matter how much you denied maha denied punya when i pointed all this out to you yesterday. i know, ok. ive been through this so many times with you and i know you so well. so well that at times i know what ure gonna say before you say it.


i dont like this game of yours. never did, never will. and if it so happens that this round ends just like the others (i bet it will, no doubts abt that), then take it like we were never friends. because i know this time, ill feel hurt at your ditching me completely in favour of a girlfriend-kind of companion.


am hit with some heavy-duty fever that make my bones ache, my teeth hurt, my eyes tear, my throat sore and my ears hot. went to some 24-hr clinic and was given an injection on the butt. sakit siak. when the doctor said he'll be giving me an injection on the butt because im really too hot (literally and not. hahahaha!), i was like ok can sure nothing on kn. abeh dia dah nk inject i terperanjat and jerked away that got him a bit shocked. he laughed and went 'eh dont scare me la. wait needle break ah, dangerous u know.' i paiseh like shit already. dah lama siak tak kena injection abeh sekali kena at pantat, sakit nk mampsssssssss. he gave me a three days mc and a $125 bill (DONT EVER GO TO A CLINIC AT 1AM IN THE MORN, PLS) i still intend to go to school tmrw kalau dah okeh. ni pun mcm dah baik sikit2.


i went to my cousin's chalet yest and all i did the whole time i was there was to be a budak cb who asks anybody who was sitting near me to tepuk me to sleep. suruh ambilkn air la, ambil kn itu ini becos i mcm really2 penat and cannot get up. i did feel quite okay for a few times in which i made use of to go to see the family bbq-ing and i go mkn abit and all. and then it was back to being terlentang on the bed with the selimut.


ill upload the picture once the chalet is over. theres still one more day to go.





woke up at 6am, ngantuk nk mamps, train ride from bedok to city hall was damned full and get this, baby. my student ezlink wont be extended unless my school sends an email or whatever it is to the transitlink whatever it is juga and then it will take about a week or so for it to be extended. and get this, baby. my sch nvr send anything fucking thing la eh. for the next 7days, ill have to pay adult fare. pukimakkau la ite bishan. nabei fucker aunty in office tt day when i asked ckp the damned ezlink will automatically be extended once u start school and in case shes fucking stupid not to realise, school started today and nur ariyani has to pay the damned adult fare which is superbly not fair becos im a student whaaaaaaat! im gonna ask money from her to top up for my card. expensive nk mampos sebab aku tinggal jauh nk mampos from bishan and if she thinks shes getting away with this without my making a big fuss, THEN DIA PUNYA KEPALA MINTA KENA SEPAK TAKRAW DGN AKU.


now, if only i can remember which aunty gave me the above misleading information. cheyyyy, fucker ah aku. nk setep mana punya fierce aja. hahaha. aiyah but now problem la siak. nk kena minta duit dari mama aku, tu yg leceh.


eh then ah, i went to the transitlink or whatever it is called counter and aku mcm nk masuk tarik dia punya tudung and cucuk2 mata dia. ni serious, aku tak action fierce. malas nk elaborate sebab aku pun dah lupa what she told me just tt i knew i had a 'what the farrrrrrk' look on my face. bila call the damned hotline, the org kata 'oh. ur student ezlink expired yesterday, 13th.' eh thanks ehhhhhhhhh, dngr2 sch start nxt yr pe. student ezlink expired yesterday? asal tak boleh continue aja siak? aku start sch niari pe? bla bla bla bla bla g hisap jubo babi ah ezlink2 ni semua.


school was definitely not the bomb. my bridge leaders (i think tts what they're called la) cn go sap beberd becos they're so boring you dont need to close your eyes to fall asleep. im sorry but whaaaaa? play the cak praka cak tongkat-tongkat cu kit cu kit game? main game tamagochi lagi best. it doesnt help tt they dont know how to explain properly mcm mana nk main e games semua. haiyah, susah la.


but forget it. im just bitter just because it wasnt all fun and nice like my first day in clementi. plus there are so little boys and i wont get to see homie no more.


hi schooling life. hi waking up early. hi long journey to school. hi cheap school fees. hi books. hi new friends. hi new cca. hi toilets with no toilet rolls. hi toilets with no paips making me wonder if i berak how i want to cebok. hi cheap food tt i will buy alot of until im gemuk until im like almost 60kg again. hi teachers who will find me a nightmare. hi teachers who will find me sweet and nice and like model student. HELLOOOOO ITE BISHAN!


the week had been good. except for the fact that mr lee would only call me and hin ghee when he needs us to work when theres not enough pple at tmft and not permanently on weekends. cheh, make us happy then at last come out say like this.


went back to wrk at borders it was all good because 'i love wrking here, i love wrking here' became my mantra and eventually i think i began to believe it. no choice mah, tkkn nk tunggu mr lee call tanya nk kerja at tmft ke tak when he hasnt got enough manpower. abeh kalau sebulan he cukup org, abeh sebualn ah aku tak kerja?


i think shahril almost got a heart attack when rafiq told him tt he (rafiq) saw me at dbl o. he said i dont look like the type who go to these kind of places. abeh bilang ivan, ivan pun ckp sama. tt sure says alot abt how selenger and innocent and cute and nice and mcm sembahyang punya type i look like whenever i go to wrk kn? lagi-lagi dgn tak pkai makeup. rmbut berserabai (ah ok. sorry, mmg rmbut aku selalu berserabai). padahal ah kau, aku suka pkai baju2 merepek and skirt pendek2 walaupun kaki aku tak cntik. huahuahua.


i really like working inside the sorting room. sebab aku suka shrink-wrapping things. and plus, theres always something/someone to laugh about/at when in the sorting room.


after work yesterday, i met up with rischka to shop for some clothes. we bought dresses and purses and huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu, we went to cotton on. kontol punya abg charming wasnt there but his fren was and his fren was like 'hello again!' and i was mcm mata terbeliak because he rmbrs me although baru third time i went there and mcm paiseh skejap. he was really nice and all and i think it pretty much make up for tt attitude he showed me the first time i stepped into the store.


the plan is sentosa and then dhl balloon on sunday but the wrkplace pple is asking me to change to afternn shift. confirm on sunday i will nangis ok becos im very sedih even now, tt i wont be able to cntinue at tmft. ive gotten quite rapat with most of them and aiyah, susah la. im very emotional one and also very gembeng. must tahan air mata. i think i must wear contact lens or something on tt day so tt when my mata berair and if they ask if im crying i cn say 'no la! this one i not used to wearing contact lenses. very pedih, they're making my eyes like watery like tt.'


bahs, i dread sunday. )=


when i told ridhwan i dreamt of us trekking, he laughed and and told me im kental. and to get back at him for saying im kental i asked him about **** and asal sekarang asyik bunyi cricket aja and then we meleret to cerita abt sch and all. and then i complained abt something memalukn tt i did later on to him and he laughed somemore. i told him to kill me and he nabei chak teng teng asked me if i want to be brutally raped first and then cut into pieces. nk step mana punya serial killer aja tau si dekni. gua buka silat baru tahu.


when i told matnoh i dreamt of us trekking, he laughed too and asked if i really trekked or just tgk while he treks. and when i told him tt i betul2 trek while in the dream, he shot me with a 'hahah, bgn confirm berpeluh ah ni? agaknya at aust kita gi'. (mentang2 kita plan nk g aust, suka hati siak dia asyik ckp pasal aust.) kira bottomline, hes trying to say tt im gemuk and nt sporty. jaga kau, nnti aku masuk sporty2 nya cca bila dah strt sch nnti then u cnnot kacau me abt being buncit anymore. *cucuk mini-mat punya mata*


i punya muka, muka budak info counter eh. this week ah, i kena buat info, also known lovingly as carpark counter (takmu tanya asal. long story siak.), on two alternate days. and on tt day in between --and every other day unless im at jetty, actually-- bila i do not have to do it for a full shift, i have to cover it for one hr when whoever pergi for their break. tak boleh lepas ah. tapi apa nak buat, dah nasib badan.


on a happier note, eh sial la gua dah kaya kaya kaya. tadi g check gaji, wah! almost want to pengsan when i saw how much ive got. ni belum termasuk duit gaji from borders somemore. hehehehehehehehe *rubs hands in glee* boleh shopping smpai nk mamps tapi tu pun depends if i can get some time off work kan. susah la, pening siak fikir nk beli apa dgn duit yg membuat tgn aku gatal ni. cheyyyy, mana punya nk showoff je aku ni eh. hahaha.


wan tanah merah (yes, another wan. hes an aetos police at work who always mock flirts with me. mmg dia wan tanah merah pe, since he works at TMFT with me. huhu) caught me checking out two ICA guys who were walking past and dgn pantas member called me up on the carpark phone. from where we are both at, we can see each other clearly -- apa tak. he doing the pre-immigration no more than 30metres away from the info counter only-- and the first thing he said was 'ah tgk tu agak2 ah!' OMG, dia siak tau suka spot2 aku. i told him tt i punya suka la want to look at the boys ke, want to look at their pantats ke. he ketawa suka hati and say he jealous. i gave him a 'hahaha! ur wife, how is she?'' and he grinned super wide at me, laughed and hung up the phone.


then firdaus was asking me abt who was wrking at the jetty and once more, wan tanah merah called and went 'agak-agak ah!!' and hung up. i no need see his face pun i can know tt hes smiling cheekily. hahaha, cb ah. ni ah abg2 umur 20plus bila they takda kerja. kacau org tak sudah. lincah aja tgn press e telephone buttons. kalau pakcik2 ada slow sikit and by the time they nk call, the moment has passed. (=


eh relek je aku blog ni entry at kerja. huhuhu. apa lagi aku nk buat? dah puas siak surf internet. ni la lumrah org whose deployment for the day is at the carpark counter. senang hati, goyang kaki, gelek2, minum nestum pakai straw. ummmm, sedap! K BYE!!


i guess ill be back to being a workaholic once more starting sunday.


i had actually thought of calling the service manager to inform him/her of my schedule on wed but i wasnt sure which of the service manager would pick up the phone and i only want to give my schedule to effendy cause minus the part where my leave got cocked up, he gives me the perfect number of hours on the days tt i do want to work. i had decided not to call and msged a few friends asking if they're wrking on thurs instead. if so then i cn kpo2 ask them to hand in my schedule for me mah. but those tt i did msg werent scheduled to work so then i gave up and thought to myself tt i probably deserve another week of just 8hrs of work.


sekali tadi pukul 8pm effendy call la. mcm tahu2 aja aku feeling2 nak kerja keras. huahuahua. so hello 15hrs of wrk, 4 days a week. no more off days, no more enough sleep, no more staying up late. ah, aint this the life.







whoever knew tt the ex bf has a sense of humour? he knows tt of all the things tt im afraid of is if he happens to like me again. i find him absolutely irritating on good days and beyond intolerable on others. he likes to msg me 'hey, still alive?' and i purposely wont reply, wishing super hard tt he would think that im dead. if i do reply to his msgs, its just me patronizing him. -- layan kan aja, this guy was afterall someone u were once crazy about, yani. lagipun kau kan tgh boring. -- it doesnt help tt my best friends go 'but hes cuteeeeee, heh heh heh'. mmg cute ah, tapi part he start his mintak-kena-sepak-takraw mode is definitely not cute k.


because it was fauzi's last day on the 30th and we ordered canadian. when i got to know tt fauzi was quitting i felt super sad. i had then told fauzi 48356437856 times i think, 'fauzi no need to go la..' and he had seemed sad and at loss for words everytime i told him tt. but for the last time i said it to him, rasheed came to the rescue before everybody got weepy and went 'EH TAKDA. NI DAH BLANJA LU LEBIH BAIK BERAMBUS!!" and everybody laughed and tt moment passed but then it soon came back when assura blasted graduation by vitamin c and lip-syncd to it dgn penuh semangat (dia mmg. drama queen number 1! huhuhu!) and rasheed turned off the lights and waved his hands in the air with a lighted lighter in one hand and pakeeza sang at the top of her voice the part 'FRIENDS FOREVERRRRRRR!' and then i got even more sad then i already was and mcm.... haiyah. fauzi is one of the nicest guys at wrk and who is not pemalas and everybody likes him and everybody was really sad to see him go. SCC should have offered the contract to him, but they were a little too late. SCC WOLS BETUL.

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29th/30th Mar 08.


twas the countdown to the cousin's birthday and the theme was black and white but i degil and wore a green dress instead. but still got black and white la little little bit so kira ok kan tuuuu. met up with the usual suspects but this time, olynn, shikin, faris and another 2guys came down as well. met with asri the other cousin and his matrep friends and evn my brother's gf came to join us all.


the music for once was nt too bad quite strong from the time we got in till the time we decided to take our leave and attend to our peruts yg tgh mengamuk bising2 asyik growl growl growl.


we all of course had our preferences so as to which part of Mos we'd like to be at so then the group separated, got together, got separated, got together again and the cycle goes on and on. of course most of the times, all of us would be at smoove because tts where the birthday boy likes it best but this one time we dragged him to the main arena for some trance-loving. u should have seen his face when we suggested the main arena for awhile, he had this like... 'omg. im nt tt kind of gay' look. lily and i had to half drag him there.


i absolutely do not know how to shuffle, made an effort to learn it, got it for 5seconds, forgot how to shuffle, got onto the moving platform and joget sembarang because i tak tahu malu. then got this mat salleh scream2 then i also join at him at every other beat and really la, best tau joget sembarang. especially with nisa and lily who also joget sembarang sometimes (otherwise nisa just pretend to be mcm beauty queen and blow kisses to people sebab kn moving platform... so kira mcm glamourous ah tu. haha.) and then after three rounds, we went to ambil the lampu2 stick thingy and then made our way back to smoove. ni part the cousin no need for us to drag him. he lead us somemore ah!

the birthday boy. 22, ish so old already!

si yahya ni baju dia marijuana mcm lampu kelap kelip. and cousin aku mcm paham je buat mcm gitu. dah gay tu buat hal gay eh!

YAY. YANI TINGGI AH!
elfie and abg hensem yg tak photogenic terus.

khai and nisaa.*inserts khai's nak-cover-jealous-tapi-tak-dpt-cover-100% face*
some random stranger who likes it when my cousin dance super much. "WAH!! BETTER THAN GIRLS!!", he said.
MC DEESSSSSSSS

ok the rest of the pictures are already up on shutterfly. ciao!