my mother feeds me well. even when she doesnt cook, she gives me an ample amount of money for me to buy myself food. and if tt money somehow is not enough, i turn to the money that i get from working on weekends. after paying off my bills, i usually have pretty much left and i spend them mostly on food. i have my bulging belly to prove it. (=

but my case is getting serious. in the past week, i put on 4kg.

there was abg aidil's bday chalet on last friday. he turned 26 (mak oi, so old already) and he seriously lacks good-looking friends. hahaha.

oh take a look at my arms, too. ive always known that i hve big, flabby arms (other than big, flabby thighs) but matnoh seriously perangai mcm cb. last week when i went out with him, he suddenly stopped and watched me walk from behind. then he comes up to me and say 'uve got man arms. hahahahahah!' i think he sengaja eversince i so semangat go rockclimbing. waaaaaah, lucky i can take joke ah! i hope its a joke.

on saturday, org kampungs dtg! my mama cooked chilli crab and org kampungs (nek biah, cik atom and cik wan) bwk lauk rendang dtg. eh peh sedap, i mkn tambah2. ni bukan lapar, ni gelojoh. huahuahua.

cik ros, nek biah, nenek and cik ajak. cik ros, cik ajak, cik mail, cik wan and cik atom.
on sunday i ate alot too. nasi, then maggi and then i had hotdogs and tons of popcorn while watching hellboy. i dont like popcorn but i still eat them anyways.

on monday, my mother cooked up a storm. sweet and sour fish, tomyam soup, siput, some chicken dish and veggies and plus2 somemore i cannot rmbr already. she had to cook alot of the above stated twice because there were many mouths to feed. the cousins, aunties and nenek had came over to my home because it was the last day nek biah, cik atom and cik wan were to be in singapore. so we had loads of home-cooked food, loads of durians, loads of ice-cream and loads of karaokeing.

my home is pretty small and my family members are all pretty big. not everybody can fit into my living room, what more into a picture. (=

ok i know now where i got that extra 4kg from. tmrw want to diet ah, mcm gini. but for now, i better be off. nak g mkn rojak india. (=

i ended my sunday night badly for reasons too long for me to tell. and as per usual, he lets me cool down for a few days before trying to make peace. he was shouted at and i hung up the phone on him as soon as he called just now. he hates it when anyone hangs up on him but he knows me too well to take it to heart.


for the second time in two weeks, i screamed and sulked at him only to forgive as soon as he said sorry. yes, im weak like that. i practise 'forgive and forget' to a fault and i give second chances. most times, i give never ending second chances.


a different story altogether: im having a love-hate rship with my new phone. i have always found sony ericsson phones quite tedious to deal with and look what i end up with.. yeah. a sony ericsson phone.


i had gotten a new line with unlimited sms and i am thrilled to no extent. it really does not make much of a difference because i dont indulge in texting for fun or for asking if a person has already eaten and i always ignore smses regarding things that are of little importance like to answer to ur 'are you tired?' qns. i still like the idea of being able to send texts without a limit, though. pls do not take offense when i do not reply to ur texts, its not you. its just the way that i am. nak tahu, call. nk tanya benda remeh-temeh and want me to layan you, call. smses are fine until i suddenly get bored of trying to press the buttons with my large fingers. unfortunately, i get bored quickly.


so nothing is in my sony ericsson except for contacts, some random shots to try out the camera and nurul's photo so that when she calls, her pic would be shown. not a high chance of that happening actually since ive put my line on divert to the old number that is still in use. so whats the purpose of me getting a new line and together with it, a new phone? for the unlimited sms, of course! which brings me to point out the paragraph just before this one that explains my smsing habits. which will lead me to ask, once more, so whats the use?


im sorry, did i just bore you guys? goodnight, im going to sleep. i am so skipping somemore lessons tmrw. (=


rafie used to tell me that i wont miss what i forget. that holds true for so many cases except for this one. i may have forgotten but i do miss it and i want to rmbr. i want to feel the good, the bad, the whole lot of it once again. without it, something is missing. i assure you that i am not exceptionally selfish nor greedy. of course there are times when i have asked for more. but isnt that human nature? to always be wanting more than what we already have. however, if i do not get what i asked for, so be it. one thing that i have learnt is that i am better off going with the flow. i have learnt to be happy with whatever i end up with and not ask why is it that someone else's is better than mine.


as much as i want it, im quite fine with waiting till i get what i think i deserve. when you guys say im fussy, you all are only half right. im not completely fussy, i just do not want to settle for something that, in my opinion, is second best.





i went to meet hanis yesterday. we had a quick lunch of nasi ayam penyet at paya lebar and then off to marina for a movie. we had just enough money for the movie, to buy drinks and cheesy hotdogs. we also had enough time for hanis to panic like shit as she had she misplaced her phone. she didnt even bother asking the person behind the counter if anyone had returned her phone until i did it for her. lucky i ask, sebab mmg ada org return pun. i like want to slap her head for nt even trying to find out from the person but of course i nvr la. shes too tall, my short hands probably cannot even reach past her shoulders. muahaha.


the dark knight was awesome. many of you may say that its draggy and all that for the movie lasts for 150min but omg, i loved every part of it. especially the parts when the joker came on. heath ledger is so so so good, i almost believed that the joker really does exists. barely could recognise him. hes scary like shit, as convincing as how i had ever expected him to be. hotel lima bintang pun kalah. hahah, k kalau tak faham tidak mengapa.


today.. i skipped OFA class. ok, i know sooner or later (most very likely sooner. verrrrryyy soon. my mama wont be nagging cos she doesnt know yet. the day my warning letter arrives shall be the day i i will need my earplugs more than ever) some of my friends would start nagging at me so i just want to say that just now will be the last time im skipping class. really!!


went to watch hancock with nurul after our initial plan to watch prom night was ditched. netty and iffah told me that the prom night was crappy. nurul and i were nt really sure what to expect of hancock because we never had the desire to watch the show at all. but it was the one with the most convenient timing, just right enough for us to get to rckclimbing on time.


hancock was greaaaattttttttttttttt. funny and sad and to cut it short, it was better than i had expected it to be, so yeah. good show! good show! im happy that my money wasnt wasted on some crappy show afterall.


out of the blue, two persons whom i know for sure dont know each other asked me if i miss them, very much to my amusement. and to both i gave the negative answer as it was the truth. they're missing me, they said. and funnily enough, that makes me quite happy actually. (=


i skipped school today. first time since sch started ok. of late, i have only been skipping classes. die ah for sure cos mrs heng confirm send to the mother a letter detailing my very bad attendance.


leonard msged me at 8am and when i replied two hours later saying that i just woke, he asked me if i hvnt got school today. i told him i ponteng and he went 'bad girl'. i had wanted to reply 'not bad girl. i am BATGIRL!' but i takut he terperanjat beruk pula kn at my being lame so early in the day so i simply didnt reply at all. huhuhu.


ill be meeting hanis a while later and im making her come down to paya lebar to eat nasi ayam penyet with me. shes staying in teban gardens and tt is superbly far far away from the east side but i know she doesnt mind. because she'll be getting back her mp3 which she had left in my bag the day we went clubbing. she definitely cannot live without her mp3 and it really is understandable. i cannot stand train/bus rides, even if its for 10minutes, without listening to some music either.


i kepo want to see what songs she ada in her mp3 and i evil la cos i want to make the battery habis so tt she cannot listen to it on her way home after getting it from me. let her suffer abit more. hahah but plan tak menjadi cos i dont know how to turn her mp3 on. aku tgk mp3 dia terus otak aku blank. i think i shall go and charge the mp3 tt my frens bought for me as a bday gift (in my favourite colour somemore! i touched tau!) and upload songs and not bother abt hanis' one.


its really nice to be chatting with best frens early in the day. it just so happen tt we have no school/work (ok so i ponteng but still counted as no school la) and conversations during this timing has always been preferred by me. (=


this post is full of cocks and talk-cocks and how a girl should not be talking. aku dah warning eh.


i got a call and was super surprised when i saw andy queks' name. i picked up and omg, does it feel good to talk to him or what? a meet-up is definitely in order and we have been trying to get a date in which we're both free since forever but tak guna because im super busy. ill only be free starting august.


i told him that it was my bday a few days back and he asked if i wanna pressie. of course i tak tahu malu say i want la and he offered me his cock. nabei cb this one never change sia perangai. dah la tak sunat ada hati nk offer aku cock dia. ee taknak. confirm kotor mcm otak dia juga. hahaha.


the phone was passed to alvin and alvin juga offered me his cock as my bday present. then he told me that his birthday too just passed and that he wants a present. i went 'ok i give you cb, u want?' and he shamelessly went 'ok i want!' hahahaha. wait i go get pig cb for u ah, alvin. dirty ones for dirty fellows like you.


i shall try to organise a gathering for all of the 4Cs.. soon. im a procrastinator through and through (i know u guys know that) so i guess aku punya soon should be around..hmm, i dunno. next yr? haha. i need somebody to keep bugging me and make me feel bad enough to not only be thinking about it but to actually make it happen. i shall go get some others to help me make this long overdue gathering a reality, latest paling latest, by the end of this year. its not particularly hard, i know so. its just that im lazy. heh heh.


one thing is clear though. definitely no chalet nor bbq pit nor anything that would require us to have to burn charcoal and not sleep at night. me is no likey because im sial like that. i do not want to bbq but i just want to eat and then i feel bad because i nvr help. nyahaha.


ok now i want to go blast my brother's eardrums for using my bag. he kept his smelly shoes in them. -_-



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it was karaoke with the best friends minus hanis. she says she doesnt do karaoke. riks doesnt too but she still came and we made her sing although she shy-shy cat. kau ilhamku by manbai kepe, kak? haha.


the day started super fine and my feeling all happy and good. yesterday was the first time all of them will be hanging out together and i was abit nervous, worried that they might not get along. they all have vastly different personalities and only god knows how i could have ended with best frens who are as different as night and day, korea and malaysia, perut and kuku and.. yah you get i mean.


oh but they do get along well enough and i went all out asyik nyanyi lagu jiwang. nk nyanyi lagu kopi dangdut i tak pass and nk nyanyi lagu english gua tak semangat sangat. we got the super big room because all the smaller ones are fully booked.








i called olympus regarding my camera and was told that it is ready for collection. the person on the line said that they had sent me a msg informing me so but i didnt receive any la. lucky i call. but whats impt is tt my camera is now fine, just in time for my birthday somemore! heeeee~


the birthday is tmrw and all i want is to be worry-free for that 24hours. i do not want anything else right now. maybe in a day or two, id start asking for presents ah ok? haha.


i had gotten an early birthday present a few days back. a friend had said that hes gonna trnsfer some money to me so that i could spend it since he couldnt give me a pressie on my birthday itself but i think he actually tak tahu what to buy for me la. i had refused as it was really a no need for him to do so. i had thought he was joking when early next morning, he msged me and told me to go check my savings account balance. i went to check and omg? my jaw dropped when i saw how much he had trnsfered. no, i didnt offer nor did i want to trnsfer him back the money although that would be what id usually do because im too nice like that. he did something VERY wrong to me VERY recently so i think it is in my right to be selfish and keep the money, plus i didnt ask for it kan? he gave it out of his own willingness. i thanked him, of course, and i spent the money quite unwisely, of course. *GWG*


my plans has evolved from such-and-such to an absolutely different such-and-such altogether. there were circumstances that couldnt be avoided, plans that were thrown aside and plans that were thrown in during the last minute. everyone wants the celebration to be a different thing and i cannot please them all. i had felt like cncelling everything cos my head hurt and thoughts like 'eh birthday aku ke birthday kauorg ni?' ran through my head. it made me feel bad because i didnt want to think as such. i know they're just damn excited but i couldnt help but feel that all that they're thinking of is how to please their own-bloody-selves. tt probably is the most untrue thing but it sure felt that way. they didnt ask me what I wanted to do. excited pun ada limit ah pls.


so i took a breather and tried to make do with what i can. i cncelled a few things, threw in arrangements that most (and definitely yours truly ) would like, called in a few more friends to join in because i absolutely believe in 'the more the merrier' and am now set to enjoy myself. i cannot wait for saturday as although its just another typical birthday celebration with very typical plans, im happy enough. (=


i better go because there is a demand for gossips and it just so happens that im the one who is supposed to do the telling. man, these people sure are impatient!



i am back from batam and it was the shit yo. really! huhuhu. i enjoyed it very much -- especially the part where i got to buy so much with so little money. woooo, aku tukar 50dollars and i managed to get myself a pair shoes, shorts, a tee, two bottles of perfume and 1 and a half hour of full body massage.

second surprise? the hotel from outside tak lawa and my heart kinda sank. sekali aku masuk WOW-WEEEEEEEE!?!? semangat aku datang balik ah. hahaha! it was really very nice. the room i shared with farah was also very nice but the rooms that my brothers got, omg it was like a dream. it was super duper pretty and they absolutely do not deserve it, i think because they're just boys who only care about smoking and.... smoking. i masuk their room i jealous but i dont want to tukar ah. their room smelled of ciggies, i bet they light up as soon as they got in to the room, and i aint no like the smell of those things. and it was already in a mess as their clothes were already all over the place. mcmbabi.com ah they two. (=

we went for karaoke and e third surprise was that we're being charged at S$5 for a can of coke and S$4 for a teeny weeny cup of coffee/tea. but what to do kan, order already just pay up la. the org tua were the ones who paid so im not gonna complain. heh heh heh.

fourth surprise? LAGU SEMUA LAGU INDON ZAMAN 90's PUNYA SO AKU NYANYI LAGU APA TAU?!!! lagu semua sembaragan ah aku sebat. lagu cubit-cubitan la, tenda biru la.and then i sexcited bila nmpak ada lagu temple of the king so i sang that and since lagu2 jiwang that minahs mcm aku suka takda, i promptly lied down on the sofa and fell asleep.

we got up early on the 2nd day, went for breakfast, took jumping shots, farah's camera got spoiled, went shopping, went for seafood on the kelong (omg the ikan tt they have damn big i think eat for 8932146 days also will still have alot then maybe can donate to those budak africas so that their peruts wont only kembung air but buncit like me because they eat food juga) and the fifth surprise... the duck ride was free. haha, eh mana mahu dapat siak ride free? at singapore semuanya harus dibayar but this one was totally free!

shopping.seafood at kelong.

ni dua action. aku ambil duck punya ride, diaorg nk ambil yg animal dragon. sekali the dragon one bocor so cannot naik. then they were given the rabbit one and nmpaksah mmg the rabbit takda lesen berenang because it moved only backwards. nyahaha.the mighty duck punya muka evil tak boleh angkat. kau tgk kening tipis dia tu, nmpaksah mmg minah mcm aku.

bibik and i went for a massage after that while the rest went for somemore shopping. i had wanted to laugh while the person was massaging my body but i tahan. im ticklish nk mampos especially my neck and my thighs. ah so now you know why i dont do maksiat with my boyfriends eh. boyfriend want to touch thigh 'EH CANNOT! GELI!!'. boyfriend wants to nuzzle my neck, i start laughing and move away. how to do anything like that? i am doomed, nmpaksah. haha.

ok cerita tersidetrack sikit. all in all the massage was best smpai i tertidur while she was massaging my hands. :D

batam reminds me of johor only much much cleaner and with smoother traffic. id love to go again but only short trip like this 2days1 night will do because there isint really anything much to do except to shop. once i get the pics, they shall be up on the shutterfly as usual. then u cn go see my ugly jumping shots and how fat i have become. cheers!

olympus called (twice) and informed me (very rudely both times) that i must pay $110 for the reparation of my camera. omg? i almost vomitted okeh. why oh why didnt the salesman tell me tt i must keep the receipt? why didnt he stamp the damned date onto the warranty card? what is the use of a warranty card if it is not valid and wont cover the repair cost?

im a sucker for boys with this kind of voices. and im a sucker for jesse mccartney now that hes got his hair cut. ok, i want a boyfriend like him. but someone a little older would be nice. pls ah? as my birthday present? huahuahua.

went to sch at 8am, went home at 10am. i really did have no mood for school as i was (still am) super tired. i slept late despite knowing very well that class starts early. it didnt help tt it was raining when i woke at six in the morning and all i had wanted to do was go back to my dreamless sleep. but i couldnt and i didnt. i got up, siap, pergi school, waited to get in class, got in class, waited for my teacher, dept head came in to inform the class tt anneh didnt turn up, went for break, had mcdonald and... decided to go home.

i did try to convince nurul and mas to go home too but they thought i was joking until i really went. heh heh. while waiting for the train, i bumped in fellow class-skippers who were my sec schmates. i asked 'siang seh balik?' and they told me they had taken the al form. it was then that i wished i had taken the al form too because i obviously do not have an mc. but nah, the school was too far away and i was already half-dead so biar la. technically, this is only my first time i did not turn up for classes so i dont think my attendance would be affected at all.

i went to meet ridhwan the other day, right before i went to movida. member was going to mos so HE decided that we should meet up and mkn first. its been a whole month since i last saw him, and the only thing that has changed, physical-wise since hes in ns and i had expected him to be all toned, was his skin colour. now hitam like me already.

he asked me why have i got nail polish on and i ckp ah 'saja-saja'. he went 'pasal nk g clubbing kn? pasal nk melawa kn?' haha, dah tahu buat apa tanyaaaaaaaaaaaa. minta kena pong ah ni budak.

assura texted me awhile ago asking if ive got plans tonight. when she asks if uve got plans, shes actually asking if im thinking of going clubbing. and hanis just called asking me if i wanna go to dbl o tmrw. im probably not ever gonna be clubbing till the thrid week of october because ive got school, im saving up for my trip and september kan bulan puasa. mano boleh pergi2 clubbing ni semuo. (=

so no more clubbing, no more late nights out, not so many going outs for the next three months. i think my mother is going to be very very veryyyyy happy.

movida on the 5th was tons of fun. but due to some sensitivity concerning the wives, photos shall be kept private. (=






i was practically rushing to everywhere, with the exception of to work, for the past few days. as for work, i never need to rush cause im always early. huhuhu.


i had to rush back home after work on saturday as i had tickets to farah's performance. besides the fact that id be wasting the money i had used to buy the tickets, i had also promised to come. and also because i had dragged nurul to come with me. kalau aku ikutkan malas, i think id die a horrible death.


initially, i took my time. wah nak balik dari work aku lengah-lengah. nk pergi take train to bedok pun i lambat-lambat. when i reach bedok, i went to check those map kind of thingys that show the mrt stns and then.... i realised that yew tee is damn far from bedok. i had thought that it was just sebelah bishan or something sekali its after bukit gombak. aku panic skejap and mcm nk bunuh diri because i was so damn confident that it was near and had intended to relek2 at rumah tgk tv before i siap.


nmpaksah my wanting to relek2 tgk tv tak menjadi. i met nurul only abt 10min late, and we arrived at unity sec right at 8pm. padahal we could have arrived early but we went to buy cheeseburgers first. dua-dua kebuluran as both were from work and were ready to eat a whole cow if there was one.


glad we didnt come super early because we still got good seats anyways. (=

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