when im married, im gonna make my husband buy me many2 pillows for our bed. eight, at least.

im gonna have six, and he can have e remaining two.


do u rmbr? whenever we are on ur bike, we'd either:

• be singing she's gone out loud, screaming the chorus part and laughing whenever we got the song wrong,
• or talking abt shits like how fat i am, how fit u are, how we would always be friends and would probably end up marrying each other,
• or we'd be listening to the songs in ur iphone.

do u rmbr? we were on ur bike listening to the songs in ur iphone and u said tt the 'single' song was for me. tt was probably around september last yr. im always reminded of it, of u, because the song keeps playing while im at work.


but even worse, it keeps playing in my head. this song defines what u will always be to me, of how u want u to be to me: my boyfriend for tt few minutes till the song goes off.





i had a movie date w the borders girls.


it was tau huey first with aisyah and elise. i think im a little obssessed becos everytime im even near dhoby ghaut, my mind would be filled with images if tau hueys. they'd occupy all of my brain. i would drag whoever who was with me for some tau huey-loving. amazing how something that i previously disliked to the core during my childhood is what i seem to desire all the time nowadays. kind of like boys, in a way. i used to be able to tolerate them though im not in favour of them much, but im quite sure i like them alot now.. for most times..


when they arent irritating..


or when they buy me gifts..


or when they make make me laugh till i feel like i could pee in my pants. :p


i was once accidentally kissed on the cheek by this boy who sat beside me in class -- nizam. i still rmbr his name, k. and i had thought tt he was nt tt bad looking either -- while in primary one and i was absolutely horrified. aku balik rumah, bila aku mandi, i stood under the shower and rubbed my right cheek as hard as i could.. till it became sore because it was damn disgusting la to be kissed by a boy! i didnt tell the mother because i felt so guilty, so sinful!


tapi itu dulu. when ure seven, kissing was disgusting. even if u liked a boy, u wouldnt want to kiss him. ud only want to look at him from far. the mind was untainted. but now if i get kissed by a boy that i especially like.... wah! aku kiss balik ah. on lips also sure can one! tkda malu2, none of this "disgusted" nonsense! hahaha.


tt said, tau huey nya seperti biasa... sedaaaaaaap. though not fillling enough for my rubbish bin of a stomach. heh.


aisyah told us abt how shes only being paid for her first two yrs of uni. the next two, she'd be on attachment w no pay at all. elise and i were getting a little stressed for her becos money is a big issue what. kalau kerja tapi tak dpt duit, lagi bagus merempat at rumah goyang kaki besar kan pantat ke.. belajar masak ke.. main internet all day long ke. no money, cannot support urslf kan?


anw, aisyah was also stressed abt the money issue. but for a whole different reason. dia bukan stress pasal duit mkn/transport/bills takda, dia stress pasal and i quote "ya lah, they wont be paying me. then i cannot buy new clothes. i dowant to go work to teach in the same clothes all the time sia!"


elise and i almost fell off our chairs. hahaha, serious sia this girl. shes worried abt having to wear the same clothes many times to work when she should be sweating buckets abt how shes nt gonna be able to feed herself la!! aisyah.. aisyah.. *shakes head* ure one of a kind. (=

aisyah and elise.

syaz and atiqa joined us after work. we went to pastamania for some halal food (syaz dont eat non-halal. so baik la, confirm go heaven one ah this makcik) and lazed around at starbucks till it was time for hes just not tt into u.


movie was good, but i didnt expect it to be so damn long. had to share cab back home w the rest as it was past twelve.



syaz and atiqa are going for coldplay's concert. they bought the most expensive tickets alreadyyyyyy. syaz couldnt believe she spent close to 200buckaroos but was then consoled by the fact tt shed be getting money from the govt early march. i also want free money pls!


it was good to meet up w the girls. we never do this often enough. next up would be syazzy baby's 21st bday. she wants to go clubbing. ooo, im sexcited already and its not even my birthday. huhuhehehaha.


oh! im going to vietnam in june for some volunteer work. and will be off to bali in november with kak tasha. shes gonna book the tix next week once i can make up my mind abt which hotel i want to stay in. nov is still a long way to go but u know kak tasha la kan. she likes to do preparations early. i dont mind becos i anything one. somemore we have been talking abt this trip since a few days after the new year. when with her, i know the trip sure will menjadi. yay yay yay yay yay yay!


i woke up late for school today. sucked big time because i had confidently told myself id wake at 8am when i turned my alarm off at 720. gah, overshot gila babi and i had a presentation due. aku rush punya rush to sch tapi at last e presentation got postponed, so ya.......................... no comment ah.


at sch, i busied myself w watching hot korean boys singing/dancing/being all sexy and hot on youtube with mas and nurul. i have caught on to the mania tt is sweeping us who is close to mas. u cnnot help but get pulled into this cult because mas is all over the place promoting korean songs to everything tt has ears. shes like a mini advertisement on tiny legs. she'd then entice u with words like 'u go tgk their mv, this one very cute u know!' and its true! ni budak2 korean hot hot heat ahhhhhh! *fans myself*


while i was working at tmft, there'd be groups of korean tourists who'd be getting on the ferries to bintan and tanjung pinang. they always smell super bad. i had wondered out loud once befre if the korean boys whom we were salivating over smell just as bad and nurul cofidently ckp 'mesti la tak! tu lain, koreans tu semua tua2. ni muda2!'


abeh aku mcm confused ah because cannot be right? what, the old ones never heard of deodorant meh? and not all the tourists were old what, some quite young and gd-looking but bau dia... wooooooiiiiissssshhhh. pekong sials. ahahah.



i took the test a second time. i couldnt rmbr the colour order i had chosen the last time, but as how the test had asked me to, i chose which colour i was in 'harmony' with at the present moment. the words are phrased differently but the meaning are nt tt far off frm the first result. i guess, this this IS quite reliable, afterall.


but everything must be taken with a pinch of salt, of course. i AM a muslim and just like how it is w horoscope, no matter how much id want to believe in what is told by these human truths... at the back of my mind, i always am reminded nt to get carried away. tuhan marah, yani takut. (=


Name: Ariyani
Date: 2/23/2009
Colorgenics Number: 16540327


You don't need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don't like the idea of being alone and, whatever the reason, at this time of your life you feel as if you are being 'left out'. What you really need is perhaps some 'tender loving care'.


You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.


You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.


From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.


Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.


You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.


i got this from rischka's blog. good one, this colorgenic thingy. try it! (=
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/


Name: Nur Ariyani
Date: 2/21/2009
Colorgenics Number: 15432607


You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.


Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.


All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.


You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.


You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

there was the dragonboating two weeks back. twas super fun and it had me feeling a little healthy for a while. am thinking of joining alan and jj for the weekly dragon boating thingy. but work schedule is kind of a problem. gah!



friday the 13th, some of us girls got together for a pre-valentine's day celebration. we met real early for some karaoke-loving. nafiqa semangat gila babs pakai baju 'karaoke superstar'. she has probably been waiting for decades to wear tt shirt.





the thing about most malay songs right, especially the older ones by bands such as iklim and the likes of them, no matter how 'rock' the songs are meant to be, they would still ooze this super jiwang vibe. these type of rock jiwang songs, i am a super sucker for them. first starting masuk tu karaoke room saja aku sure will pilih lagu2 sebegini. lagu2 english tu part2 belakang boleh nyanyi.

umairah was supposed to join us but she was stuck in sch with some 'black valentine' event.. dont ask me la, i also not sure what its about. some student counsellor thing, apparently. when anybody talks to me abt all things tt are student counsellor related, i go into daydreaming mode. heh.

anw, we had pastamania soon after mas had to leave for her camp briefing. nafiqa and i, kita dua kalau benda tak halal pun kita asal boleh sebat as long as we are nt eating babi la. but nurB and nurul are more baik than us two cn ever be. they will mkn food tt are halal-certified only (especially nurul) so since pastamania dah ada halal cert.. apa lagiiiiiiiii. im gonna make them pastamaniacs!

it was nice spending time w the girls. it may nt be everybody who made it but it was still all good.

im supposed to meet the girls frm borders tmrw, but we all kind of conveniently forgot and aisyah has gt assignments to complete (shes the super strict teacher of the future k, im glad shes gonna be teaching delinquents cos im sure they of all pple can handle her bitchiness. kalau budak2 primary sch, mampos budak2 tu semua menangis. haha) so.... next week aja la, k. (=

and i am also supposed to go clubbing tmrw but i just had to fall sick today. fever, sore throat and flu.. wah bagusssssssss. like as if its a sign to tell me tt i shouldnt be lying to my mother by saying tt im going to a friend's chalet when in actuality im gonna go put on my dancing shoes and go joget2. haiyah.

i was kind of dreading having to sit through a one hr bus ride to woodlands to get to the wedding w jacq. im more of a train person as i tend to get headaches and would want to vomit when i ride on a bus for too long. kau nk letak aku dlm train untuk 56jam pun aku tk kisah, but please, nvr a bus. but go woodlands cnnot take train one la, sure no seat. and i like to seat for then i can sleep.


then jacq texted me early morning to ask if i would want her friend to send us two to the north side instead. apparently, this boy suka her so i guess when he offered to send her and her friend (yours truly) konon2 nk ambil hati si jacq ni la tapi kwn aku ni tak suka this budak lelaki balik. i agreed immediately though, telling jacq tt we must take advantage of him. bukan kita suruh dia hantar, dia yg offer kan. i knw very jahat but anything to not get on the bus and free ride somemore what. no, i do not feel bad at all. my conscience is clear. heh.


the boy was nice. what made him even nicer was tt he offered to send us home too. of course la we take advantage, sure must take advantage one! i asked jacq why shes nt even interested in him and she simply went: aiyah, he ns boy leh. confirm wait horny2 one, dowant la!


hah hah hah hah hah hah. cb ah this grl.


met up w the rest, took pics, ate and waited for somemore others to come. nurul and mas semangat karaoke this song by amy mastura (fitri joined in and showed us a side of him we had nvr seen. super happy, tt boy was!) and i was supposed to sing too but lagu2 yg aku nk all takda. i didnt mind, for nobody should really hear me sing anyway... they'd get nightmares.





work has been tolerable. business at the store seemed kinda slow though im sure we are still raking in more money than some others.

i have been youtubing the casts of twilight punya interviews and i do think i am beginning to prefer robert to taylor. two resons:

1. i found out tt taylor is younger than i am. aku mcm tak percaya..... i have been lusting after a young boy all this time!
2. robert is nt tt bad looking actually. i dont have a problem w his nose anymore but in the movie his nose did seem to be of a different shape. he is funny although he should really stop touching his hair so much. or just go cut it all off la. rambut dia mcm sarang burung tiong ah.

ok ok, i shall stop babbling about twilight so much already. i do realise i have been talking abt it loads in my recent posts.

but one last thing? no matter how much i do like twilight, im an even bigger fan of harry potter.

ok i stop. see ya!

... and tt my family and friends would still love me because i cn just imagine the type of old woman id be. umur aku ni mcm aja aku sudah suka merengek and membebel. kau imagine ah kalau aku 65, pekak la kauorg semua. i will be super grouchy and always wanting to eat. i wish u all the best of luck. heh.

yes, its way past my bedtime. intan ni baru tanya aku asal aku belum tidur because it really is quite weird for me to be up at this hour. i do not usually sleep this late but im taking full advantage of my very good internet connection today. i miss having no problems connecting to the worldwideweb. life is unfair. )=


oh .. plus i had to complete my overdue project so tt wani wont kill me tmrw. heh.


my days these days goes like this: school, work, bed.


i am also now obsessed with the twilight series and aku seriously menyampah w edward cullen. romantic nk mampos, mcm tak berhabis-habisan sampai aku nk muntah. jacob black is still the best and i cannot wait to see him take off his clothes in the second movie. you see, in the book, he has kind of ceased wearing any tops because its inconvenient. weehooooooooooo! *rubs hand in glee*


am also obsessed w rihanna's hatin' on the club. i dont like rihanna si muka penyek tu but i do like her songs.